I have so much to write and yet I don’t know where to start from. Been thinking for quite awhile.
Just went to a interview with the army yesterday. I really would love a change of lifestyle and pacing in life and I love what the job has to offer. Really hope to get in. Will be going for a medical checkup on the 22nd. Quite abit of stuff are still uncertain about the job though.
As for the relationship part of my life, I’m really confused. I don’t know what I really want anymore. Its like.. when I think back about what he said before. The fact that I ate up the time for his family and friends just show how insignificant I am to him. Or maybe its just not worth spending time with me. Whenever something happens, he just ignores me and say that I always say that. … Because of all this, I can’t wait to part from my current lifestyle.. ditching everything behind and embarking on a new life. In which, things will be different.
As of now, sometimes I find myself can’t be bothered w bf. I don’t know why either. Sigh. I wish I could enter the army asap. Hopefully they would accept my application.
